If I Could Die Before My Life Ends

When you don’t know you’re dying

You don’t worry about death

You keep your tears inside your joy

When your only escape is to commit suicide

Your life becomes dysfunctional

You can’t stay longer and you can’t leave sooner

I got it backwards first heaven then hell

I’ve been robbed and God appears to be the thief

I wish my predicament was just a dream

My landlord is asking me to vacate his property

I’m not bad enough to deserve this fate

But I’m not good enough to influence his decision

Have a talk with God

But what’s the point if I’ll be gone soon

I just wish I didn’t know I was dying

*I wrote (arranged, is a better word) this poem for what I expect would be the theme song for a short film a friend of mine and I will start shooting soon. The peculiar thing about it, is that all these phrases or lines are contained within a short story called, "Impatient Patient II", which we are using as a base for the film. I picked them up without any order and re-arranged them into something that could make sense. 

Edmundo Barraza

Lancaster, Ca. 02-17-2015

http://edbar1952-accomplishedignorant.blogspot.com